I wish I could express my feelings better. It’s so hard for me to show someone that I like him/her and that I care for him/her. It sucks so much to see someone I care for so much going through something so difficult. Yesterday on the phone I couldn’t even say any words to make you feel better and I woke up this morning crying for you and for her.

Yesterday I took a survey for my friend’s psychology class and one of the questions was: “Have you ever told a friend you loved him/her and meant it?” and I was the only person out of the survey who answered “no.” Am I really that… heartless? I believe love to be a really strong word and I do often tell my friends “I love you!” but do I really mean it? I do care for my friends a whole lot and would do many things for them, but so far the only people who have my love are my family members. Does that make me some cold-hearted person? Because that’s not how I want to be. I just speak the truth. Another question on the survey was “Have you ever had a best friend for more than five years?” And my answer was “no.” Again, the only person who answered “no.” Maybe that’s why I haven’t meant it when I told my friends I love them.